I feel like I’m losing my mind. I’m paranoid as fuck. I think everyone is talking to/about me and trying to hurt me all night in the back of my head even though my logic is telling me to chill out and that’s crazy.
Then I start hearing all these creepy sounds in my house of like doors opening and stuff and I panicked and called my boyfriend begging him to come home and my heart is pounding cause I just feel so much random, irrational fear.
And I know it’s just the chemical imbalance in my head from mixing bad prescriptions and I had a couple drinks tonight so it’s making it amplified.
I got a random kind of passive aggressive Facebook message and it made me want to puke.
I wish I wasn’t feeling so scared and paranoid. I’m physically shaking and I just wish I could be back to normal. I’m so mad at myself for putting myself in this situation.
I just want to be back to my normal self.
New fall arrivals are here and more on the way! Stop by this week and I’ll help you pick out some new arrivals for fall and late summer!🍁🍂🍁Akira in the Water Tower.
Being able to dress a bit scandalous whenever I randomly feel like it, is always a fun thing. Haha. Old photo from a few weekends ago.
I stopped taking prescriptions over a year ago and went all natural after I finally overcame a pretty rough few years of depression.
I never felt more alive. Happy and willing to live my life like id never before. Not a single suicidal thought again.
I decided that using the natural anxiety killer was the wrong choice after munchies made me gain weight, so I decided to switch back to whatever the doctor would prescribe me.
So they put me on Xanax and ambien at the same time. The combination tore my brain a new one. Suddenly I had three panic attacks or more a week and truly crippling suicidal thoughts. Feeling completely irrational and angry and ugh! I hate it.
I’m immediately not taking anything and going to clean my body of the disgusting chemicals I put inside it that are driving me insane and ruining my life.
I want to be back to normal so bad. Wow. Worst decision ever.